transition to a new life

amma gave me a new name this weekend. at first, i didn't like it. i thought, "how can i use this name?" but then i found out its meaning. it is the name of the divine mother goddess, consisting of all forms and being. now i love my name. i feel inspired to live in oneness and complete surrender to the goddess. when i look around me i feel that everything is a part of me, and i am a part of it. and that this whole universe is but a tiny cell in the awareness of the mother. as heinrich zimmer states:

"Whatever you do, in waking or sleeping, consciously

or involuntarily in the cycle of your flesh to the

accompanying music of your soul; whatever you do as

your body builds and destroys, absorbs and

excretes, breathes and procreates, or bestows joy

infringing on the limits of rage and pain - all

this is a mere gesture of the Great Mother,

jaganmayi (consisting of all worlds and being), who

unremittingly does likewise with her world body in

endless thousands of forms.....To see the twofold,

embracing and devouring, nature of the goddess, to

see repose in catastrophe, security in decay, is to

know her and to be saved....She is the perfect

figuration of life's joyous lures and pitiless

destruction: the two poles charged with the

extremist tension, yet forever merging."

i am so blessed to be here. as amma says, the meaning of life is life itself. i don't know where i should go, but as long as i am happy it doesn't matter. i am where i belong.

analog - digital